Thursday, March 28, 2013
You see, I am a full time law student and part time intern and I can't do much to support the family yet, so she carries the weight. As I mentioned, we already have a kid and she is an amazing mom. She loves Sawyer so much and I love to watch them play together. I hate that she does not get to spend all day with him because she has to go to work but she grins and bears it. Even though she has a big uncomfortable baby bump, swollen feet, and works full time, she has a great attitude and still shows me lots of love. Caroline is wonder woman in every way and makes me so proud. I love her.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Someday I am going to get good at this blogging thing. As for now, it’s one day at a time.
I am about 35 weeks pregnant and I have not a single thing to complain about. Sure, I have had my moments but compared to a lot of other women I have had it very easy. If they are all like this one, then the Duggar family might have some competition. (What is it now? Like 21 kids and counting) Anyways, a couple pounds gained, (well a little more than a couple but who’s counting) and some annoying acne but really I have been a blessed pregnant woman.
I honestly believe that because of the hell Sean and I went through trying to get pregnant, the Lord is making it possible for me to bear the burdens of pregnancy unbelievably well. My heart goes out to many other women struggling with infertility. It is a long journey of heartache, loneliness, and depression that I wish upon no one. After 1 year of trying to get pregnant, the doctors start using the “I” word. Then, it becomes a life of tests, pills, and examinations if it has not started already. Sex becomes less intimate and more of a chore. Feelings of worthlessness and loneliness creep in and tears become a close friend, yet an enemy at the same time. I know because it took a long time for us to get pregnant.
I have such a deep testimony that God is watching over every one of His children and even in our darkest hours when we think all is lost, He is there opening His arms. I never understood why Sean and I had to go through almost 2 years of heartache but I know that God has a plan. We are counting the days for our little miracle to come into our lives. Here is to the last 5 weeks of a wonderful journey!
Thursday, February 3, 2011
So you know that feeling when you feel really good about something you should be doing and you know its the right thing for you? When Sean returned to his mission area in Spain , he came to a realization that he should be a lawyer. It was so profound that he remembers where he was, who he was with, and what he was doing. So he always reminds me about that day and that light bulb moment in his life.
You can imagine how good it feels now that that feeling he had four years ago is finally coming to be! However, its easy to look back on those past feeling and forget the wonder of the moment, especially when the stress of the decision weighs on your shoulders. (where to go, the cost of tuition, what to study and job market after graduation)
Needless to say, Sean was reminded today that God has a plan and will take care of us. We already got accepted into some great law schools but there was still some worry about tuition and the rest of the stress involved with law school. We have been hoping and praying for news for weeks so you can imagine the excitement we felt when an additional package came from Cal Western. When I saw a big envelope from the law school I picked up my phone and called Sean. He was at work and he excitedly said, "bring it over!" Unfortunately I couldn't so I read it to him over the phone.
"Dear Mr. Murphy:
I am delighted to inform you that you have been awarded the California Western Faculty Scholarship Award."
He was very happy to hear what they had to say. This scholarship covers tuition and includes a book stipend for the first year and 50% of tuition for the second and third year unless he is in the top of his class then he will get more. This is such a relief and a blessing. This scholarship will save us more than $80,000 in student loans over the next three years.
We were happy to hear what they had to say. This pretty much solidifies the next three years of our lives starting the end of August and we couldn't be spending them in a better place. San Diego here we come!!!
Friday, January 28, 2011
As we waited I grew worried because I knew if we heard bad news for the first couple of schools Sean would start to get discouraged. Thankfully we immediately heard good news! He got an email the following week from an excellent law school in Washington D.C saying he is on the wait list. He expected to be denied by this particular school so being wait listed was a great sign of what was to come. Then 2 days later we got an email from California Western School of Law in downtown San Diego saying he got accepted! It is our # 2 school behind USD. Someone going to school there said, "law school is hell so if your going through hell it might as well be in paradise." Plus the fact that our family is there is a bonus! On top of that Cal Western said in a letter they sent us that they even submitted his credentials to the scholarship committee so in a few weeks we should know if we get a scholarship! So happy! Now the waiting game doesn't seem so bad... Congratulations Sean!
Friday, January 21, 2011
We love her!
I was kicking so hard because I thought I was in last place. I seriously thought I was swimming so slow. Turns out I was fifth in the swimming part. (BTW its not that bad)
At the finish line. Yeah I cried. My mom cried and I swear Sean cried. It was such an emotional thing to complete something I worked so hard for. I would definitely recommend doing one in your lifetime.
Probably the coolest thing about my triathlon is my parents drove 6 hours up to St. George to surprise and be my cheerleader. It meant so much to me!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
I could count on my hand the # of things I have wanted to do that I actually completed. One of them was to serve a mission for the church. That dream started at a young age and finished at age 23. Of course I had the norm goals of getting married and starting a family. (My mom wishes that would happen sooner) And now thanks to Scrubs, my newest one was being in a triathlon. A goal I put in the back of my mind, only to collect dust…
Until 2 months before my 25th birthday. I remember thinking “Someone stop pushing the fast forward button!” I was going to be a quarter century old soon! At the rate my life was going age 30 was walking onto to my porch, ready to knock down my door. I remember an old goal of mine and decided to go for it. I signed myself (and Sean without his consent) up for the SGTRI which stands for St. George Triathlon, on May 15, 2010. I signed up for the Sprint Distance which is .75k swim/ 20k bike/ 5k run.
I knew nothing about it but I was going to do it. I could swim and bike, but running was my biggest mountain to climb. I don’t like to run but I do like my body better after I run so that became my biggest motivator.
I started training January 1st when I returned home from my Christmas trip. I have always been active so I knew I was going to enjoy getting into shape. But training has certainly not been easy. The problem was I couldn’t bring myself to part from my Zumba class. All that dancing and fun atmosphere is SO addicting. I kept telling myself I will run later because Zumba will help me transition to getting in shape. I made a goal to be able to run a mile by Valentine’s day. I had 4 months. May 15 was not going to be a problem.
It’s now March 23 and I can run a mile. I can bike and I can swim. The key word is can. I didn’t say can do it well, I am a ridiculous runner because my feet are always hurting. Biking hurts my inner legs and swimming is depressing because I used to be fast. Thankfully I still have two months left yet I wonder how much I am going to improve.