Saturday, December 3, 2011

Miracles

Someday I am going to get good at this blogging thing. As for now, it’s one day at a time.

I am about 35 weeks pregnant and I have not a single thing to complain about. Sure, I have had my moments but compared to a lot of other women I have had it very easy. If they are all like this one, then the Duggar family might have some competition. (What is it now? Like 21 kids and counting) Anyways, a couple pounds gained, (well a little more than a couple but who’s counting) and some annoying acne but really I have been a blessed pregnant woman.

I honestly believe that because of the hell Sean and I went through trying to get pregnant, the Lord is making it possible for me to bear the burdens of pregnancy unbelievably well. My heart goes out to many other women struggling with infertility. It is a long journey of heartache, loneliness, and depression that I wish upon no one. After 1 year of trying to get pregnant, the doctors start using the “I” word. Then, it becomes a life of tests, pills, and examinations if it has not started already. Sex becomes less intimate and more of a chore. Feelings of worthlessness and loneliness creep in and tears become a close friend, yet an enemy at the same time. I know because it took a long time for us to get pregnant.

I have such a deep testimony that God is watching over every one of His children and even in our darkest hours when we think all is lost, He is there opening His arms. I never understood why Sean and I had to go through almost 2 years of heartache but I know that God has a plan. We are counting the days for our little miracle to come into our lives. Here is to the last 5 weeks of a wonderful journey!

8 comments:

  1. Caroline, I just love you. I will never forget how kind you were to me last year even though your heart was aching so much. I hated being a reminder of your pain but you still reached out to me so much. That was so amazing of you and such an example of selflessness that still inspires me. I'm SOOOO happy that things finally worked out and now you will have your beautiful little boy, but also the perspective of someone who didn't have an easy journey getting there. You will always have a special empathy because of that. I'm so happy to hear you've had an aweesome pregnancy too. The last 5 weeks are going to fly! you will love it!!!

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  2. Amen! You put it beautifully. Can't believe it's only 5 more weeks...33 days! You are going to be a wonderful mama and Sean will be an awesome dad. So stoked for you guys!

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  3. I cant wait to see pics of the NEW MURPHY!!!!!!! turn the oven up and pop it out soon!!! and you guys are going to great parents!

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  4. BABY BABY BABY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  5. So glad you're enjoying the pregnancy. It's such a miracle, isn't it?

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  6. I am so glad you are keeping a blog! Caroline, you are amazing and you will be such an awesome mother! A new beginning...

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  7. That was beautiful Caroline. I am so grateful that the pregnancy has been a wonderful experience for you, you deserve it. You will be an incredible mom and the strength you gained through the trial before you got pregnant will help you to appreciate being a mom in ways that others don't. I wish you didn't have to go through that, but I know that God has a plan for each of us as you said and I am glad you are on this side of it now :) Can't wait to meet the little guy!!!

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  8. Yay for your little family! Thanks for sharing your story. You'll be surprised how common it is for people to have a problem getting pregnant, or even stay pregnant for that. Can't wait til your baby comes :)

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